There was a time when the church was the heartbeat of Appalachian life. Families gathered on Sundays for sermons, but also for soup dinners, quilting circles, and shared song. Pews filled with tired coal miners, young mothers, retired teachers and farmers. It didn’t matter what one’s political view was, or if their coat had holes. There was space for them. The church didn’t ask for purity. It offered belonging.
That spirit has faded.
There was a time when the church held my entire world together. I belonged to a small one in rural Appalachia. White steeple, gravel lot, potlucks after the service. The kind of place where folks knew your middle name, where prayer lists circled around family, friends and neighbors. It was a place for all people to feel safe.
I don’t go anymore.
I started to drift after the sermons changed. Scripture gave way to slogans. Week after week, the pulpit turned into a place for warnings instead of sermons. Someone was always a threat. The message shifted. Grace got smaller. Judgment got louder. People I loved were spoken of like problems. Others nodded along.
I sat through it for longer than I care to admit. I told myself it was a phase. Then I realized it wasn’t a phase. It was the direction the church was heading.
Now I question everything I was taught growing up. And I would be lying if I didn’t say I am even questioning God’s existence. What once felt sacred feels hollow. Words that once comforted me now sound like weapons. The Jesus I grew up with—the one who walked with the poor, who fed the hungry, who told us to love—feels farther away from the one preached now.
I’m not the only one. The pews sit more empty than they ever was. Old families stopped coming. Young people disappeared first. Then the quieter ones. A few tried to hold on, tried to change things from inside. Most gave up. Some found new places. Some walked away for good.
Churches used to carry communities through hard times. Through layoffs, floods, funerals. They were lifelines. You could knock on the door and someone would open it. Now the doors feel closed to anyone who doesn’t fit the script.
The sermons speak more about enemies than mercy. More about rules than forgiveness. Faith gets used to divide neighbors, friends and family, to test loyalty, to control stories. A gospel once rooted in love now feels tangled in fear.
I remember how it used to feel. I still believe something real once lived in those rooms. I’ve seen it. I’ve felt it. And I mourn what’s been lost.
Many who left still carry pieces of faith with them, quiet and unresolved. They light candles in memory. They hold on to fragments of what once was. Something deep inside still hopes for something better. Not for the old church to come back. That one’s gone.
For something honest to grow in its place.
-Tim Carmichael

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